Here I Am!!

     Well here I am! I got really bored  so I decided to make a blog. So I am going to tell you a little bit about what has gone on in my life in the past year. A year ago from today, I was getting closer to my freshman year of college. I was nervous but ready for a new experience. I started on Sept. 7th and thought that it was going to be a great year. Unfortunately the next day I found out that one of my friends and classmates since kindergarten had taken his own life. I never knew that I would ever have to deal with that kind of pain in my life but I have gotten through it. I figured after that had happened things would get better but once again I was wrong.

     On the night of Oct. 1st I was at the homecoming football game standing with Evan and some friends on the fense by the goal post when I got a phone call from my brother. He had told me that my great grandma had passed. It didn't come as too much of a suprise because she was old and didn't have the best of health. I was of course distraught and we left the game. I stayed at Evans that night and recieved another phone call at about 7:30 a.m. from my mom. What I heard that morning change my life. My cousin Shawn had been arrested the night of my grandmas death because he was suspected of murdering her. I have no doubt in my mind that he did it and nomatter what anybody says, he knew what he was doing. I hate the fact that we are still waiting on his trial and that it will be over a year since he did it that she will finally get some justice. I loved her with all of my heart and at times still blame myself but then I realize that I couldn't have done anything. And even if I was there, things could have been worse. Sometime in October I plan on getting a tattoo in her memory and will upload a picture of it when I get it.  After having 2 funerals in 2 months I thought the bad luck was done. Wrong again.

    It was the morning after Christmas, December 26th, at about 4:30 and I recieved yet another devistating phone call. My grandpa Bob had passed away. This time I was shocked and once again I was at Evan's house. I went and told Evan what happened and then left with my mom to go to my grandma's house. I was wearing footed pajama's (like a little kid) with rubber boots on and as soon as I walked in that door I got a few good laughs out of my mourning family. That whole time we were out there, not a single tear was shed. Only happy memories and looking at old pictures. I had to go back to Evan's for a christmas on his side of the family. As soon as I got to his house I went to his room and just laid with him and cried. I didn't know where all of the tears were coming from but I couldn't bring them to a hault. It is still hard to go out to the house with knowing that he won't be there.

     I also want to remember all of the others that my family and friends have lost in the past year. First is Tanner, Alyssa Moonshowers little sister. Alyssa loved her so much that she would have literally given the world for her. I know you miss her Lyss and she is up there watching over you.
     Secondly there is Jake Logan's mom Heather. Heather lost a battle to breast cancer this year. I didn't personally know Heather and I know that Jake and his mom had their differences but they loved each other and I am so glad that they solved their differences before they had to say goodbye. And I am so glad that Heather got to meet Jakes beautiful little girl Mya.
     Lastly is my mom's biological father, Tony Clous. I only met him maybe twice in my life but from what I know, he was a handful. I wish I could have gotten to know him a little more.

     Now to the happier stuff. I am working at Van Wert Family Physicains and for the most part loving it. Everyone has their stressful days right? I am with the love of my life, Evan Shutt. He is the best friend that I could ever ask for. I have a great family that loves me and would do anything for me and I have the best of friends, especially Meagan Freeman who I miss terribly even though she is only 45 minutes away.
    
     Okay, I am done writing for now! My hands are getting tired.